Maybe This Will Reach Her In Time

It has been a while since we last talked. I was going through my old chest drawer today and found our picture, and good Lord the memories hit me like an oncoming truck, rushing at a tremendous speed. How are you? How have you been? Hope all is well with you and congratulations on your very first internship! A one big step towards your career, isn’t it? I have been praying for you. Stay well!

While going to work today, I saw clouds gathering up like a flock of baby birds when their mother comes home with food on her beak. The only difference, they were not crying. Me being a guy who likes to be safe at all times, I went to my nearest mall to buy an umbrella and I bumped into a fragrance that you used to apply! Love the fragrance and loved it when you had it on! Hopefully everything is okay with you, I didn’t hear anything back. I have been praying for you. Take care!

Is everything okay? I didn’t hear back from you at all. Maybe I have been sending the letters to a wrong address? You still live on 27 Gold St, right? Please let me know if you’re okay or not. I can’t seem to connect to you whatsoever. I have been praying for you. Get back to me when you get the chance!

As I suspected, the letters were probably not going to the address that I was sending. You remember how horrible my handwriting was, right? My dear mother wouldn’t even realize my handwriting with her glasses on, let alone some postman! I’ll try to write clearly from now! It’s supposed to be raining cats and dogs this weekend. Please stay warm and dry, okay? I have been praying for you. Stay well!

I’m so sorry for writing with much regret, but I saw you getting off train from Cardinal Drive today! I had a doctor’s appointment today for my lovely little Diana. Remember her? She used to greet you with her high pitched voice whenever you visited my place? She is suffering from fever for the past 3 days, even though I have been treating and feeding her well as usual. Doctors prescribed her some medicines blaming it on the season and how exotic birds usually get sick around this time. Hope my letters are reaching to the right address now! I have been praying for you. Keep us in your prayers!

I have lost Diana today. She died right in my arms and I couldn’t do anything about it. I can’t seem to function properly. I guess this is what happens when you lose a loved one. I thought of you when I was burying her on my backyard. You loved her, didn’t you? Hope you’re okay. I have been praying for you. Stay well!

As much as sad I am, I can’t explain in words how more than happy I am to know about your new job! I met with Jenny today and she gave me this amazing news! I’m so happy for you! Congratulations! May Lord give you all the happiness and prosperity that you truly deserve! I have been praying for you. Stay blessed!

It has come to my attention that you have actually been getting all of my letters. Am I that much of a stranger to you now? I thought we were best friends and it was us against the whole world! Please do get back to your friend! I’m praying for you.

This is my last letter to you. I’m very upset how this all turned out. I’m sorry if I have caused you any pain all along, in any shape or form. I know I can be nagging at times, but this is the same James you adored once. Hope you still do somewhere deep down. I’m praying for you! Stay happy!

I’m writing to you from a hospital. I am suffering from a form a disease that I don’t think I would be able to get out of, not would be a man enough to talk about it. Doctors are saying that I would have to run through a marathon of tests to see what’s wrong with me. I hate the doctors. They and their cunning ways to get money out of your pocket. They are scammers, I’m telling you!

P.S- I see Diana a lot in my dreams these days. I don’t know why, maybe I miss her a lot? You’re a psychologist, maybe you’d have an answer for it? I’m praying for you. Stay well!

What if I could never go home? What if I could never meet the people I love and tell them how much I love them? I need you. Please respond back. I have been praying for you.

Won’t you just love me again? I’m still praying for you.

-Sabab.

The name is Sabab. Just a chivalrous gentleman, a depressed autodidact, and an enigmatic soul trying to make a difference.